Hurt

Every now and then you have phases where you become really quiet because something has upset you or annoyed you.

I don't know if it's because of me or someone else.
Whenever I ask you what happened you say nothing. Even though you know I've figured out that something had bothered you. It is something.

Don't lie to me.
If you're not going to tell me what it is, at least admit something is wrong..

But the same way you get annoyed and affected by little things that shouldn't annoy, you so do I.
Everyone is like that in their own way.
I never show it but I'm so sensitive about so many little things.
Even things you do like when you make fun out of me. I know you think I can take it, and it's true I can, but sometimes it can hurt and upset me.
I never show it, but I think about it a lot sometimes.
It's normal to be like that though.

However if something affects you so much that it changes your behaviour with me I'm sure it's significant enough to share.

You said that you don't want me to get bored or fed up of hearing things like this.
I felt like I'd been slapped.
You pushed me away so easily?
Assumed the worst of me?
Nothing would make me happier than if you shared things with me.
No matter how many mood swings you had like this I would listen attentively every day for the rest of my life to whatever you had to say.
I WANT to hear these things, can't you understand?

You said you don't feel comfortable telling another person. You'd prefer to keep it inside. You've been hurt before and this is just a way of preventing that from happening again.
I understand that but I thought that would have changed by now because I am not just any person anymore.
I am your girlfriend.
I am the girl who said you loved the most in the world.
Surely that makes me a significant person in your life?

If you can't tell me, who will you tell? I'm supposed to be your other half.
Please don't push me away like this...

One thing is definite though:
You don't love me more than I love you.
I can safely put an end to that debate.
You don't think about the effect it has on me when you act like this. Or if you do, you don't care.
I would never let you feel hurt like this.
I would tell you what the problem was just so you wouldn't feel how I'm feeling now- and I know you well enough to know that you'd feel exactly the same.
It would bother you so much that on one hand I tell you I love you, but on the other, I don't feel comfortable enough to tell you my problems.
Or if I really didn't want to tell you I'd give a proper justification as to why I didn't feel like sharing.
I would make you understand why I couldn't.

This pushes us apart.
Can't you see that?
I doesn't feel like you're mine.

I feel rejected.

That I'm not special enough or you don't love and trust me enough to share your inner most feelings and insecurities with me.

When this started out, my behaviour was similar; I felt vulnerable and I didn't want to let you in.
I held back. But those insecurities have almost gone now. I tell you everything. I feel like you have a right to know.
The ironic part is that YOU told me that holding back wasn't good for our relationship. If we tell each other personal things like this we'd become closer. Our relationship would become stronger. I saw your point and I decided to change.
Yet you don't follow your own advice?

I was shocked when you said you didn't feel comfortable telling me what was wrong.

I feel like I've been tricked; it's okay for me to pour out my heart to you, but I can't expect the same back...

Most of all, though, it's not about me- it's about you; I'm just upset that you're upset. That you're not acting like your usual self and that you're keeping everything inside.
I just want you to be happy.
I really can't bear to see you like this.
You have so many things going for you and you're such an amazing person.
Snap out of it.
Why are you so upset?
Please stop hurting me.
You promised me you wouldn't.
Please stop doing this to yourself.
I love you.