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vieromero
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I am extremely sad right now.
Sigh.
I...I freaking asked him if he wanted to date...me.

I'm not sad because he turned me down. Although he didn't really accept either...

But the distance bugs him. It bugs me too. If I wasn't in school where I go and he didn't work where he did...things may be different. But unfortunately those factors affect the possibility of anything happening between us because we're going in separate directions. We won't be able to see much of each other. Dating each other would only come to mean no sleeping around with other people...any intimacy and companionship would be lacking/extremely difficult. It wouldn't be much fun. Cheating would almost be inevitable.

I just freaked out. One of his texts was so solemn and so unlike him. He's usually optimistic but he didn't seem so in one of his texts regarding "us." It freaked me out. So I asked him if we could date for just a short while...temporarily...because I like him and he likes me so we might as well make the most of what we have...right? If we stop talking by the end of the month at least I could say I dated a great guy and enjoyed whatever it was that we had while it lasted...we both knew dating wouldn't last. That we wouldn't last. That's it.

Oh I don't know what I was thinking! I have never asked anyone if they wanted to date before and I was trembling just trying to get the words out. How do guys do it???

And I don't know if I should feel bad that he didn't say how he felt at all...he just got all practical and stuff...which is logical...but he said nothing else. No, oh I like you too but...
He didn't even say that he liked me! That he wanted to date me.
He just gave me points to consider.
Then he told me to text him in the morning...
Maybe he's just stringing me along....he got out of a relationship with a cheating girl and then slept around and then I guess he just wanted some teeny bopper girl to fall all over him and be crazy about him to boost his ego.
I want to...I don't know.

Right now I feel like that girl in the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" where she tells the guy how she feels and the signs she thought he had been giving her and he denies it all, says it's all in her head, and rejects her...

I don't fucking know anything anymore.

All I know is that I will never be bold again.

That was my first and last time.

#emotional-vulnerability #general #long-distance #relationship-uncertainty #unrequited-love
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Comments & Feedback (23)

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:39 AM

@chickgamer @naaviie @MinxyMolly I'm so fucking stupid 😞

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:44 AM

@Blueblotts thanks for reposting πŸ’”πŸ’™

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:45 AM

@Jamtots thanks for reposting πŸ’”πŸ’”

Blueblotts
Blueblotts
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:48 AM

Aww, Hun, don't think that way:/ I think you maybe over thinking it a little:/ Don't beat yourself up about it. Stahp. The way I see it is you suggested more and he suggested dating. That sounds like a good thing to me. I'm terrible at this kind of thing so don't listen but please don't get all twisted and beat yourself up about it:/

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:50 AM

@Blueblotts he turned away the idea of dating...I wanted to date and...I feel...ughhh I'm going to go to sleep 😣

Jamtots
Jamtots
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:52 AM

Calm down and stop over thinking things. You should just wait until morning, text him and then see how things play out. Don't let this destroy your confidence. Guys go through the same stuff, we just try not to show it. I don't know all the details, so I won't say anymore. Just sleep and talk to him in the morning (:

Blueblotts
Blueblotts
Jan 4, 2013 at 3:54 AM

OhMiGawd I'm so sorry. Really sorry. Really horrible of me. Sorry:/ Goodnight. I hope you sleep well. Sorry. Told you not to listen to me XD

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:02 AM

@Jamtots yeah...thank you...

ashhkat
ashhkat
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:02 AM

πŸ’™πŸ’™Deep breaths& sleep. Don't think about anything else😊

Jamtots
Jamtots
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:02 AM

@ashhkat ☝☝☝ what I meant, in far less words haha

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:03 AM

@Blueblotts thanks for reading and reposting and trying to help me out. You're sweet

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:05 AM

@ashhkat @Jamtots I think that's all I'm capable of doing right now anyway sigh thanks ladies

insomnium
insomnium
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:12 AM

Aww, don't let this ruins your confidence, it happens to all of us, I was turned down by a many guys I liked in past- if he actually not into you, don't worry- this soon will become a distant past along with him. :) guy who really like you for who you are will truly shows it. Just breathes deep and dream a beautiful dream, tomorrow is a new day. πŸ’›β€πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ’œ

ashhkat
ashhkat
Jan 4, 2013 at 4:31 AM

@Jamtots haha well I'd take your advice over mine😁@vieromero good✨hang in there✨

chickgamer
chickgamer
Jan 4, 2013 at 7:41 AM

@vieromero this will happen again, it's life hun. We put ourselves out there and sometimes we don't always get what we want. Tbh you said he's just out of a relationship with a cheating bitch and he's been sleeping around, maybe he said no cos he actually does feel ready to commit again. Which is understandable. Text him in the morning, ask how he feels, does he still want to be friends? Like I said, LDR's are hard. And no one wants to loved 100+ miles away

chickgamer
chickgamer
Jan 4, 2013 at 7:41 AM

Doesn't *

naaviie
naaviie
Jan 4, 2013 at 9:05 AM

Ooh well done for asking him, that was really brave. Unfortunately it doesn't go the way you want but, hey, that's life. He can still be a nice friend 😊

minxyMolly
minxyMolly
Jan 4, 2013 at 11:04 AM

@vieromero well done for being brave @Jamtots advice is good advice to follow, however since it's morning lol generally I wouldn't over think this, what @chickgamer said is true, we've all at probably at one point or another put ourselves out there and gotten turned down in one form or another, and yeah does make you feel like utter shit not gonna lie but you just sort of have to either make the best of it or move on, plus like @chickgamer said he may still want to be friends or you may of caught him off guard with being forward with him, but who knows I'd just relax about it for now hun! I wouldn't give up too easily and definitely don't let it ruin your confidence! Anyways hope your ok! @chickgamer 16/17 porn books in counting! (: x

sjw
sjw
Jan 4, 2013 at 12:15 PM

Sorry your feeling low but like everyone else said dont over think things he may not have been stringing you along because he may not have been thinking of you in a romantic way but as a good friend and doesn't want to loose your friendship at least he's being honest with you, if he's been a good friend be happy with that if anything is meant to happen between you it will when the time is right if not then at least you won't regret that you didn't ask 😘🌹

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 5, 2013 at 2:32 AM

@sjw @minxyMolly @naaviie @chickgamer @insomnium thank you all for your comforting words and your advice. I love that you guys are so eager to help its so nice to have that support...I did take your advice...ill write about it later πŸ˜‹πŸ˜˜πŸ’œπŸ’šπŸ˜˜

insomnium
insomnium
Jan 5, 2013 at 6:44 AM

Looking forward to it, β€πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’›πŸ’œ I know, I'm new myself and all people are so so so SO DARN nice, unlike in real world which is sad

vieromero
vieromero
Jan 5, 2013 at 7:27 AM

@insomnium writers are emotional and sympathetic lol 😘

insomnium
insomnium
Jan 5, 2013 at 9:58 AM

@vieromero of course they are- sometimes its hard to believe someone so nice, after all what's happening with world nowadays

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