Come Back

I tried so hard to keep it inside
I tried so hard so that it won't affect me
But now that I try to forgot all my tries
I find it harder to forgot what you gave me
The beast inside me settled is now free
And tearing my insides apart constantly
I tried so hard for you to see
But all I hear now are echoes and mimicry
Till I cry till I bleed for the world to bear witness
The humanity you expunged replaced with horridness
And all the love I ever felt drifted away
Till all I had left were mere murmurs to say
And all my tears and bones were left to flay
Till was left but mere fractions of mud and clay
You don't realise the damage you've done
Because you never stopped to think
You never wanted to put on my shoes
You never understood any of my clues
And now I have to take my own shoes off
Walk barefoot with painful blisters does this king
Who once wore jewels around his carefree feet
You didn't even try once to give me what I want
Instead you lived life the way you'd always want
With an air of royalty you would act you would flaunt
You never heard from me a single complaint not one taunt
And now you unconsciously stand above me and daunt
Chain me without chains inside myself you have
Your presence to me now will always haunt
I can never be the same around you anymore
But how will you know you don't care for me at all
You've changed a very subtle way yet
The magnitude only I can truly abet
The change is greater than I can comprehend
Over this sorrow is only my right to fret
And even though I am not wrong in any way
This problem may be only mine to amend
I'll still give one last try my dearest friend
Will try to explain so that you may apprehend
Fix what you have unfixed and you have me back
If you can't manage the tear will form a crack
Something both of us will never be able to rejoin
Forever this guilt with you shall remain twined

Copyright Waleed Yazdani 10 November 2012