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It Will Hurt

It took this long but, I have finally really realised where I stand - just a friend. Maybe I realised this from the start, but I just didn't want to admit it to myself. Granted, you don't know my feelings towards you, but telling you about it won't make much of a difference. It's not like you will like me after knowing that I like you. No!
You will just be trying to find words to soothe me while telling me why we are not meant to be together. I am very sure you can feel the vibe I am projecting towards you. And, had you felt the same way towards me, even a morsel of it, you would have given off a vibe to me as well. I would have been able to feel something.

Now, just now, things are beginning to be clearer to me. You didn't want me to send you home because it was hopeful for me. You always asked me if I could bring people along out with us because it was hopeful for me. You have secrets kept from me because…well, that I don't really know. But my guess would be that if you had told me, I would've started talking in a lovey, mushy-like voice, and you wouldn't like that. I've been toying with the idea that you might like me, when in reality, the feeling has been one-sides. Unrequited.
The gall of me to think that I had a chance.

I just didn't get the hints.
And because of so, you feel especially exasperated with me. It's like I'm a parasite and I have overstayed my welcome. I'm sorry I took so long to understand. I really am.

Thank you for being kind with me PIC. Not once did you humiliate me or rejected me when I wanted to take you out. I am forever grateful for that.

I will give up now. It will take time and it will be hard, but I will, as a writer here told me, "maybe it's time I looked for something that is worth investing my heart in."
Having said that, I want you to know that you are worth everything to me. I would do anything for you. That is why, I know I shouldn't put you in a spot trying to fend me off.

Take care of yourself PIC. Don't hurt yourself unnecessarily. Seek a friend if you feel hurt and feel like giving up. If I am not be able to motivate you, find someone whom you think can. I will always be here for you PIC. I will never run away from you; You are my life. I thank God that he placed you in my life. If there's anything good and awesome about me, then the credit is due to you. Only the faults have been mine.

This will hurt, and I will falter at times, but I will do it for you. My PIC deserves the best. Sadly for me, I'm not 'The Best'. My fate is such.

Always in love with you,

Zack

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Comments & Feedback (18)

Really don't know what to say....apart from this is beautiful. Sad, but beautiful, & in a strange way, uplifting 😔😌

@Fly10 thank you. just stuff that happened.

That is sad but if an old lady could give you some advice. It is good to tell the person you adore that you love them but don't be too kind. Respect is very important for a relationship to work properly. Show you value yourself too or they won't either. Forgive me for giving my opinion but you seem so nice, you deserve to be happy.

@crowncottage no no, your opinion is very much appreciated. that's the first time someone has given me such advice. I will keep it in mind. I would want to tell her but, I'm scared. I don't want to lose her as she's also my best.

I meant she's also my best friend.

@zaakee I know but it's better to be courageous. You will never regret being brave and doing something, but if you don't you may regret it forever. If it doesn't work out at least you will know won't you, good luck!

@crowncottage those are wise words. I will try to find the courage to tell her. just not now. not yet. I will do it though, because of what you said. and thank you! I will need all the luck I can get!

@zaakee that's fine but let her see you value yourself and she may start wondering what she is missing, women love to have someone who they think is beyond reach or 'not bothered' I hope it works out the way you want ☺

Beautiful and so sad I agree with@crowncottage you should tell her how you feel otherwise you'll never know if it could've worked out and regrets are hard to live with.. Hope you don't mind the input ☺

It is so hard and heartbreaking when love isn't returned. Know that you have made the right choice, and truly in time it won't hurt as badly. Thank you for sharing your heart. ❤👍👼🐶

@sjw nah, the input is much appreciated. the more people tell me stuff, the braver I'll get I think. works sort of like motivation for me. thank you (:

@crowncottage I'll definitely have to work on that. I've always placed her as a priority. but now that you've mentioned it, I think you're right. it's time I value my own self as well. if I don't, why should she. thank you do much for your kind and wise words. it just dawned on me how much I really needed those.

@zaakee thank you, you will be fine I am sure ☺

@Lovinmalamutes thank you for your kind words. (:

You are welcome. I think I read this incorrectly, as I thought you had already tried the direct approach a

I accidentally posted that comment before I had finished it. Not so computer savvy.😳 Anyway, by all means don't give up before you try, you'll most certainly come to regret not doing so. Please disregard what I said earlier as I mistakenly thought it was a. Past tense, all had been tried love! So, take a chance, you only live once in this world and you never know until you try. Maybe it will or maybe it won't but your heart will always know you did all possible. Life has it's ups and it's downs, but most things worth having usually take work and courage to obtain. My experience anyway. I wish you happiness and send you positive thoughts! 👍😃❤👼🐶

@Lovinmalamutes that's right. I've a stubborn mind though. I'm trying to change it so I will be much more courageous. thank you for your advice. it helped me sort out my thoughts.

You are so welcome. And it's okay to have a stubborn mind just remember to not let yourself get " Stupid stubborn" . That's where you become your own worse enemy. Just a heads up from someone whose cut off their nose to spite their face, so to speak.

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