In Love With My Best Friend..

I'm in love with him. Totally and completely in love with my best friend. We can talk forever and more after that, and I guess one time while we were talking, I went and fell in love with him. Or maybe it was a time when I wasn't with him, when I was with my other friends, and I realized that he was different, really different. Special, you could say. Or it could have been when I was alone, and I realized that I was thinking about him, and not even realizing it. I don't know when it happened, just that it did, and now it won't go away. He's more then my best friend. He's like my bestester friend. That's how great of a friend he is, that I have to make up a word to describe him. My throat tightens, my heart beats faster, my stomach goes crazy, and I wonder if he even kind of feels the same about me every time I see him. And I really want him to feel the same way, but for right now, he can just be my best friend. That's all I want. For him to stay with me forever, in whatever way he sees fit. Stay with me so we can talk forever and then some, laugh until our hearts can't take it anymore, and be there when I need to cry on his shoulder, even if he doesn't know why. There's a lot of ways to love somebody, and my other friends all say that maybe it's love towards a brother, or the best of friends I'm feeling, but I know it's the real deal. I know, cause every time he smiles, I'm reminded why I haven't just given up on him. Cause I'm totally and completely in love with my best friend. And that's okay for now, as long as we can at least be best friends forever.