When Realisation Sets In

It hurts to know that you are liking/enjoying the attention from others and not from me. But, I've also come to realise that you only see me, when stripped of all the fancy words, as a friend. I know now that I won't progress any further because you do not feel anything when others around you can see that I like you. Maybe you know that too and you are just ignoring it. Either way, my feelings won't be reciprocated.

Maybe I'm not doing things right, unlike what the other guys are doing. But I do care about you, and I still do. However, it's time I let you stand on your own and make decisions for yourself.

I would have to start thinking for myself as well now. You didn't ask me to be there for you all the time and care not about myself but, I thought, as your PIC, I would do so for you; I wanted to be your pillar of support and, for you to see me in a different light as well. So I will try to not call or text you every now and then, to check up on you. And this time, I will try and commit myself to it. It was pointed out to me that I am trying too hard and, because of that, you feel that you can fall as I would be there. Maybe it's right, maybe it's not. The point is, I am trying too hard.

If you wanted to, you would have felt the vibe by now; you would have come closer to me.
As much as I like you, this is not healthy for both of us.

I hope you are doing okay. and I also wish that you will get better soon.