Frustration

I've never felt so lonely
As I do today,
Even though he's here he feels a million miles away.
I wonder what I've done to make him push me so far away,
But do I really want this? Tell me should I stay?
I'm fighting with myself every single hour,
Over my head I rule but my heart I have no power.
Why is he doing this and why can't we talk?
I need to clear my head and go for a very long walk.
These tears they keep on falling and landing in my lap,
I didn't want to feel like this, all caught up in his trap.
So I sit and wonder quietly in this little room,
What will it take for me to walk away? I need to do it soon.
And though my heart is aching and crying out in pain,
I never want to feel like this ever, ever again.
So look at me and tell me? Am I not the girl you love?
My tears spill down my face as I ask from help above.
Just tell me what you're feeling, be honest and true.
Even if it's not the same, I can move on without you.
It's not like i'm not wanted by others all around,
It's just that you won't notice me while I stand here on this ground.
You have to let me go and do my own thing now,
And though I think you will, I really don't know how.
I just want to be loved for the girl I am,
And be on my way to happiness with someone who gives a damn!