Gone

I've only just realised
That you are gone.
I knew you had left
Just not that you were gone.
And it hurts.
To see that we meant nothing to you.
It's like rubbing salt on a wound.
To see that you can move on
Without a glance back.
To see that when I try to get up
You take a hammer to my knees every time
Shattering my support when I need it.
To see that you can kick my punctured heart around,
The heart I entrusted you with,
Like it never meant anything to you
Like its just a sack of worthless emotions.
To see that when I think I've moved on too
You remind me I was just kidding myself,
Walking on a path
That just loops around you,
The missing centre.
And that no matter how often
I think the fall has ended
It's a false bottom to an abyss,
An endless pit,
And you have severed the chord
That should pull me back up.
You heartless pig.