'I'm not attached to your world'

Call me an attention whore,
A drama queen
Yes.. I like the attention,
don't we all?
But I may have
an extraordinary excuse,
maybe it's not attention after all
that I'm bleeding for;
I just need a friend
that cares and appreciates
because I drew them away one by one,
I still believe in what I did
what I said, what I say;
it was too early
too unexpected. I knew
what would come out of it
and that I'd be the one who is 'everything she's not supposed to be'
But I did what I did, and to this day I don't regret it.

Call me vain,
Ah sometimes I get full scores from tests of Intellectual Quotient, and the system goes apeshit, because it can't calculate it.
I do know how to write to be ranked #1,
how to please your obscene mind,
a missionary sex scene will make all teen girls
go aww,
they love to be in hands of someone,
an ode to my mom,
would make your hypocritical hearts get undone.
But I enjoy being the scapegoat, the alien
who you can't figure out;
you don't know how to
put me down.