Stronger

Hurting deep inside,
Trying to hide the pain,
Wishing that it would,
All just go away.

Waiting for the sun to go down,
So I can hide my face,
And leave in its shadow,
The tears and disgrace.

Will there ever be a day,
When I can set things right?
Or will it all come crashing down,
With sorrow, pain and might?

I wish I could just stand up,
And show them that I care,
Show them that it hurts me,
And that it isn't fair.

I continue to go through times like these,
But I fail to see why.
Is it to teach me to stay strong,
Or to show me it's okay to cry?

Why can't I stand up for myself,
Or make my life change?
Why can't I be braver,
Or stronger in some way?

I wish I could just reveal,
The feelings deep inside.
But that would just cause more distraught,
And show you that I've lied.

Those days when I would used to say,
"I have the greatest life,"
Are ending with my childhood,
I must be stronger to survive.

I wish I could still act myself,
And that I didn't have to hide,
These feeling that I only just contain,
Hidden deep inside.

One day I hope I can show them,
How much they affect my mind,
But until I can be that strong,
I'll try to be more kind.