Fall

When you fell
From the ladder,
From the pedestal
Of my unrealistic expectation,
It was a revelation.
The sound of your
Bones breaking,
With a deafening whisper,
A reality check.
It ripped through
My carefully laid plans,
Chewed them up,
Turned the map
Upside down,
So I don't know
If I'm coming,
Or going,
Or staying.
And now I'm walking
On a knife-edge,
On the border between
You and him;
The reality of
Your frailty and
The possibility
Of losing you
To a jealous mistress;
Death,
Changed everything.
More than ever
I'm trapped between
The choices
I have to make.