Beastly ~_~

I check the stitches in my heart daily,
The ones you forced me to sew.
I know if I tried to love you, even faintly,
You would kiss, kill and go.

Emails, calls, texts,
These were your hunting grounds.
You made my weep, never to rest,
Struck through my soul; your voice, your sounds.

Glorious gifts galore,
Perfect presents presented.
You! You always needed more,
Bribery and bullying could not be prevented.

A forced kiss from you,
A fake smile from me,
I can see why you flew,
To love me, is hard, I see.

My first identity caught your eye,
I was going for the beauty look,
But I don't know why.

The second day, I changed to normal,
Not even a glance you took,
How very formal.

A beast I am,
A beauty you see,
Still beastly coming from here,
But you, did you actually love me?