Broken Prom And Tight Spots

With some prom is coming up, and I am no exception.

Now I've been cutting it real close this month with several commitments and with also my personal life also--my schedule is tightly packed and for some reason, events want to happen so close together with other things. And just to make it worse, people think you have the ability to just drop your commitments and give them your full attention. It frustrates me with how selfish people can be when you are already doing things for them that CAUSE your schedule to be even more packed.

But that's not a problem anymore right now, the month is almost over and what I had to do is done and I have delt with those who assume I have all the time in the world. No. Right now all I have to worry about is prom.

Like I said, I've been cutting it close, and right now I need to find a dress (still!) with only a week left to find it. Don't get me wrong though, I would have looked for a dress months before, but I did not know I was going until prom was already so close because my boyfriend asked me a little too late because of financial issues, so we had to talk about it so we would be able to go.

Anyways, today I just wasted a day. And I feel so discouraged, because I searched through three different malls that were so far apart and looked through all the dress stores around the areas, I went EVERYWHERE.. and still...I found nothing.. The dresses are nice, yes, but it just doesn't suit me and my physical appearance.. Some just didn't fit even thought I know that I'm that size..some wasn't right for me because I'm not tall...I don't have light skin...and these prom dress were made for people who don't look like me...like for tall, light skinned, really skinny people.... Today was just an embarrassment because I tried on so many dresses and they all just didn't look right....didn't fit right...just everything..the dresses were highlighting all the bad spots on my body...

I know I shouldn't cry over this, but I did and I'm just so upset...I'm so frustrated that I couldn't find anything...am I really that fat? Am I really that ugly? The dresses I tried on, other people tried it on too and it looked so nice on them..but not on me...