Renesmee's Story Chp.7

Jasper felt uneven about my words..
"Why... Why are you afraid."
I have already said to much.
"Forget if jasper..." I sighed
"Ness c'mon you need to tell someone correct?"
I sighed and deliberated that for a moment.
"Okay well... When I was over in la push with Jacob. My dad came and-" I couldn't finish I was to afraid.
"And?" He pushed.
"And... I can't say."
"Why not?"
"Jasper Dad would be so angry if I-"
I stopped talking because my dad was walking up the steps. My face turned pale and my heart started skipping beats. I backed up in my bed into my head board and pulled my knees to my chest wrapping my arms around them.
Jasper looked at me curiously. He realized why I was doing so and he looked disappointed because of my reaction to the sound of my dads footsteps.
My dad came Into my room and murmured something to jasper that sounded like. "I need to talk to her"
Jasper left the room.
"Nessie what are you thinking!" He snarled
"What do you mean." I wondered
"You can't go around telling people what happened."
He slapped me in the face with his hard stone hand. A tear rolled down my cheek. I wiped it away quickly. The stinging on my face didn't dissapear but my tears did.
I looked down at the tear drop that rested on my finger. I thought about saying those three words.
"I hate you..." I muttered.
"What did you just say?"
"Nothing..."
"Ness your mom left with esme and Rosalie. They are going to visit our cousins in Denali."
"So?" I wondered.
"So... Emmet jazz and me will be the only ones here."
"What about Alice and Carlisle." My voice filled with acid.
"They will be out with the Italian's"
I rolled over the stinging subsided from my cheek and seemed like it moved to my heart.
"Why are you blocking me?" My dad wondered
"Why do I live... Why you do this... Question right..." I said threw my clenched teeth.
He left the room leaving 2 words behind
"Smart ass..."
I hated this... I'm going to die.