Me

Look
Deep in my past
Starting school
Where were you?

My first report card
All A's
I had tried so hard for
Only for you to glance over

My first art project
A chance wasted
Done at last minute
Because you couldn't help your daughter

Coming home everyday
Not knowing who'd get me
Bullied constantly
Never did you try

My first play
Hope crumbled
Last minute rush
From you, sleep, and work

Every waking day
With knowledge of one appearance
Then a make- shift dinner accomplished
But you slept

Every concert,
Or game,
Or rehearsal
'Where's your mom?'

A repetetive answer
Stinging alls heart
'She's not here. I'm walking home.'
Them questioning you

'Why's that?'
A monotone voice
'Work. Or sleep.'
Wishing you weren't in that position

Never there
Always asleep
Forcing me to grow up quick
You and Yourself only

After striving for your nonexistent attention
Facing your heartbreaking sickness
And becoming independent,
You don't need to be there.

I don't want you there.
You want to be,
Now that it seems
Worth your time

But trying so hard
For something you never gave me....
Now something
You so willingly give

Its no longer a want
Nor a need
Its a belief of my individuality
Which by ignoring your daughter

Forcing her to grow up
Without your guidance or advice
Has made me who I am,
Some one I'll always be.

Me.