tell me first.

you don't know how badly i want to.
just tell him, what ive been wanting... needing to...

since the moment
we talked.
we shared.
we connected.

i wanted to say,
"i love you."
just as a friend

but i didnt...

because i felt like he would think i was becoming
too attached.
too needy.
too desperate.

then something happened...
my heart beated faster.
my hands became cold and clammy.
and i swear the zoo was let out in my stomach.

when i look at you, it's not the same.
i blush and look down.
when you playfully punch my shoulder,
my skin tingles at your touch.

what's happening ?
am i starting to like you... love you.. even more than just a friend?

But no, i can't say it.
i know you like me too...
but what if i say, "i love you."
and you dont feel the same.
and i would look stupid and moronic
and then there would be a silence.

then awkward communication
and less communication
and no more.. communication.

See that's why i can't say it
even though im dying to.
because i really do love you.

but i will just wait, until you can say it too
so that i would know for sure
that you love me too.

xoxo
Vanessa