When I see you

The thumping of a heartbeat, pounding vigorously into the chest - the ever-so-light trickle of sweat spontaneously erupting from the back of the hair - the sudden dryness of the mouth and looseness of the jaw - the restriction of breathing, the collapse of confidence and the ultimate ignorance of everything in the world apart from your presence

And when you smile, everything is multiplied by a hundred - except this time, it feels good. Nothing has ever felt better, and a warmness erupts from my heart and fills my body with your kindness, your sweetness and your just mind-shattering beauty - and I feel so light, I feel so free, I feel, perfect..

But then you walk past. And everything disappears. All that's left is shame, embarrassment and regret. For not doing more. All I can do is wait until next time. And although I dread the inevitable shame, embarrassment and regret that will follow, I secretly cannot wait to see your face again.

That's how I feel everytime I see you.