cliche

why is it
that i only know you
through text
i know who you are
behind an electronic gadget
you can tell me anything you want
only if it isn't in person
it doesn't make sense
life doesn't make sense
and we meet a bunch of people that don't make sense
and finally we realize,
things aren't supposed to make sense
i understand we have a past
and some people know
but they don't care
because you have new bait
aka my friend
i understand im the one who used to make it awkward
and it took me a while to understand it
completely
that i don't need you to make me feel whole and pure
i just need those feelings to remain the same
yet civil
i understand that you aren't everything i want
and need
and desire
and we both can do better
it was easy for you cause you've got a whole line of girls waiting
but you know me,
hard to get
picky and sensitive
and it was only till after we were through with
that we would actually listen to each other
at school you would only talk to me if if were
important
or you had a question
or you remembered something you had to tell me
other than that
i don't see how we can be considered actual friends
ive said this before
and i mean it
and i don't fully understand why it's so easy to write about you
such a complex yet simple topic
it's only a boy
yeah right
a boy who shook me up and tried to crush up my feelings
and twist my mind
and led me on
even so
ill be looking one way
and to my surprise
you'll be there
eyes catching onto mine
but immediately i turn away
i don't like the seriousness
i don't like the awkwardness
but we can't help it
it's our fault
and those glares
those stares
what do they mean?
oops, sorry
oops, i miss you
oops, were better off as friends
that is true
we make much better friends
considering the fact i care about you
we can make fun of each other
you don't get my sarcasm
it's been an awfully long road
and it was just my time
to leave
to move on
to go
and i took that chance
because maybe second chances
didn't work out the first time
and so we know how to act towards each other
your eyes will be parallel with mine
meeting up
having our occasional deep conversations
you might annoy the shit out of me
and i might not be able to explain most things to you
but one things for sure
my cliche first love feelings for you
will never change.