...can't believe i'm posting this

I see it now as if it were today,
memories of color in black and grays.
Do you see my eyes and feel the pain,
pressed like i.v.'s in your veins?
You bullshit your friends, ill bullshit mine.
But bullshit me and cross the line.
Always honest? Always true?
I know I was. How 'bout you?
I want you healthy, I want you here.
If my kids want grampa, what would they hear?
Would they hear you, here and healthy.
How should I know...when you won't tell me.
If you'd like to talk, I'm here to listen.
Just speak up, all is forgiven.
This isn't anger, whatsoever, it's worry.
I want you to talk, and I want you to hurry.
I'll never give up, I'll always be there.
You're my dad and I love you, forever ill care.
If you think I'll be mad at what I hear, then you're right.
But so what, be a man, you taught me that, right?
I wanna hear it from you, forget all the others...
Who untucked all your secrets, I see under the covers.
If you have a problem, just ADMIT IT and tell me.
Together well fix it, and be sure that you're healthy.
We have as much time, as you'd like it to take.
Just know that I love you and till then....I'll wait.