My Day....

Today was just one of those days, where something happens and it changes your mood for better, or for worse. For me, it was a bit of both.

Today was the death anniversary of both my grandma and grandpa, which followed with the traditional mass said at the local church with the whole family in attendance. To be honest I dread this, my whole family in one building is unbelieveably painful....

I'd spent the whole time looking after my 2 amazing cousins who I love and couldn't live without, they completely brighten up my day <3

And then, I saw him. Walking past the glass window. He had his hood up and I knew straight away who it was. We haven't properly spoken since that night and even then, it wasn't much of a conversation, he just took my breath away. I never thought that simply kissing someone had the power to do that....

I didn't know how to feel. By the time I left the church he was on his way down the road with his father and I just walked away. My mood was weird then. I was happy, cause whenever I see him my eyes light up and my heart skips a beat... But I was also a bit sad, knowing I'd missed my chance to talk to him again.

The only proper exchange we've had in weeks is awkward glances across the room, not wanting anyone to suspect anything, but still feeling the urge to shout how you feel from the rooftops.

And that was my day, full of feelings of confusion, love, heartbreak, loneliness, happiness... Life is crazy sometimes, right?