Newbie

What am I afraid off? Is it the 'new-ness' of it after being comfortable in my own little bubble? Is it the bitter past? Perhaps, is it just my own insecurities ? With a sinking heart, I think it is the latter. Insecurities. Am I not good enough? I fixed myself. I survived a major heartache. I turned my life around (well maybe about 180 instead of 360)- so why am I feeling like this? The checklist of 'that' matter is halfway through. But the major questions are boldly highlighted in my mind. It is very soon, I know. But you know what, thats how I really am. I TRIP hard. Charms,little comments, teases, these get to me like lightning though. Guess for now, I have nothing to lose. I am going with the flow. Two can play this game, sweetheart. You know why? It is that one sentence that struck me like a bolt. 'Past', 'bad' , 'experience' all in one simple sentence. This is game is on ;).