Post 500

I'm still here I guess... Hanging round uncertain in this place.
I'm tired of hiding myself as if I am in some kind of disgrace.

Recently I can't make a move or post anything without fear.
I feel like i'm being watched for mistakes, no longer welcome here.

It's not right that when I see certain names pop up on my phone.
I feel my heart sink, as I know it's not a nice comment so I groan.

My biggest wish right now is to just enjoy my time with you lot.
But sadly right now feeling happy to write is something I am not.

Petty arguments here and there, gone and dusted like the season.
I feel like i'm a criminal right now but no crime so what's the reason?

I've followed the rules of Opuss and officials assure me i'm all okay.
So why do I feel like a shadow is looming over me each and every day?

I understand not every one likes me or my writing, I have but one request.
If you don't have anything nice to say keep it to yourself I have no interest.

Like it or leave it but don't start nasty shit because I no longer even care.
I could not give a damn any more about friends who were never there.

Those of you who give support and have stood by my side each day.
I love every one of you with your differences each and every way.

I love to read all of your work and I believe every one is a hidden jewel.
Any one who thinks I'm here to cause trouble really is a huge fool.

So from now on hate on me all you like but just keep it to yourself.
I wont be cowering away or caring about it, it wont damage my health.

I have no time for stuff that is unkind or a hinder to writing so listen to this.
Ima' be with my pals and encouraging new talent and I don't give a squirt of piss.

Any one who wants to get along and play nice and accept me for me.
I will be right here brushing dirt off and getting back up and stood proudly.

If any one has a problem with the words I speak in this heartfelt verse.
Stop reading my poem and go drive off dead in a funeral hearse.

Any one who knows me by now will know I am as harmless as fluff.
But will also stand my ground like a pit bull snarling all big and tough.

I am my own person and lets just leave it at the door and all that.
But don't come at me any more if all you want to do is act the twat.

I keep to myself and I only ever leave positive feed back to help improve.
I'm a bit of a rock that'll sit here, when i've actually done wrong then I will finally move.

I know this seems like i'm dragging things up again but I'm really tired of feeling like i've done crimes when I have done nothing, I Just want to write and have fun, I want to inspire and be a friend. What I don't want is to cheat...I never needed to and I never will. I don't like fights or confrontation, But genuinely I have felt like I'm being watched for mistakes and I feel like some one is heavily above me waiting for me to make a wrong move and crash down on my head. As most of you know I am very friendly with the creators of Opuss, I care about them quiet a bit. I'll say this now...I would never dream of doing anything to ever cause them to distrust me. So why do any of you feel I would? I'm not this aggressive person and I am not some one you can't approach. I'm so willing to help any one on this App. I've made great friends on here. This isn't a dig at any one and I really just want to get on and chill. I'm proud I got to rank 1, It took hard work and dedication. I certainly feel right now there is a lot of tension between some writers, I don't want to be a part of this vicious circle any more. I live by one rule; If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say it at all. I am here to write and read and encourage. Not to be put down or make any one else feel inferior to myself. I don't care about this bull any more. I will write when I feel like it and read when I'm relaxing. If you need me or want me all you have to do is @iPuss me. Good night my friends. xXx