Crush

Some how I knew it was coming, yet now that its actually happened I feel rather lost, in a sea of the words that you said to me.
Okay, so I could never have you, I know this. But I did find you having no one else as a sort of sick comfort. Like I wasn’t the only one you was rejecting in a way.
This is all over the top. however I don’t seem to be able to stop myself from typing these over exerted feeling. I’m going to blame you for all this actually, I didn’t even know who you were until you threw yourself at me.
I was unstable and fell for the antics of your devilishly cute smile, and the sort of masculinity I seemed to get from you.
With all this known to me, I still get that little spark when you look at me. Pretending to hate you to try and get you to notice me, Yes!! all pathetic. Telling you my feelings didn’t get me anywhere though, you just brushed them off. Never giving me a true rejection, my childish crush kept on to this.
The time we spent together in the small bar by the beach, sat by the window; flickering lights above, and the moon shining through the 60’s glass.
That’s when I knew. I was falling for you. I tried to stop myself, knowing that one day this would happen. You seemed oblivious, or maybe you always knew. I mean its not like I ever hid the blushing smiles or the butterflies in my gut that I’d always get when you would give me that look…