My Lost Cause

Smiles and laughter,
All helps,
To hold me together.

I'm slaving for a lost cause,
Trying to make everyone happy,
Forgetting that slowly,
I'm also dying.

Tears roll gently down my cheeks,
Because I know,
I'll be truly loved by,
Someone whom I'm yet to meet.

My memories of you,
Are more like bad dreams,
Recurring,
Impossible to dismiss.

Our love was lost,
And all hope was gone.
But maybe I could find it again,
Buried deep in the ground.

If so,
I'll scour the earth,
Searching for my cure.
Even though I'm failing to find it.
Someday I will find it.

My lost cause.
You.