The Inescapable Distortion

The inescapable distortion

The creeping, seeping,
Reckless insanity
Curling round my brain,
Twisting my torso into knots
It grips my stomach,
Squeezes,
Leaving me on all fours like a beast
Heaving and choking,
My madness spewed on the ground for all to see
I can’t catch my breath,
I can’t catch my breath.
My heart races, humming in one long note
As clammy fingers circle the base of my neck,
Inescapable.
Innocent actions become daggers
Stabbing and ripping at my flesh,
Friends become demons
Out to do me harm
Lovers become my ruin
My dropped stitch,
And I unravel and pick
When it should be a simple fix
Jealousy becomes a red hot poker
In place of my spine
Rational thoughts flee,
My brain cannot slow enough to catch them
They ride on the waves of emotion inside
And run Screaming,
From the burning graveyard
That is my vessel
Life becomes minimal
Control my endless task,
If I slip…
If I slip,
If the cracks start to show
Everyone will know,
Everyone will know.
The whole world caught up
In unfriendly fire
Pulling and turning
In a never ending whirl of terrifying chaos
The inescapable distortion
That never lets me go
That never lets me go.