there's nothing
i did it
I smoked
I smoked
it wasn't pot
it was fake
the high wasn't great
I was just mellow
I'm over the guy now
well I can't tell if it was from the high
or from my mind
I think of pot as drilling
drilling a hole in your skull
all the shit you're supposed to worry about spills out and leaves forever
too much of this is bad,
a little here and there is okay, right?
I felt cool doing it
I felt like adrenaline
this is bad
this is wrong
when those thoughts run
I'm happy
I'm free
I'm just sixteen
I just turned sixteen
this is the start
the start of the downward spiral to the end of this hump
this hump of sadness
the hump of self pity
I'm happy and confident now.
I'm Mckinley Streett motherfucker.
I like who I am.
I like me.
I like me.
I like me.
I like me.
I don't like me.
I like me.
I want people to like me.
I want to not care.
I want.
I want to want nothing.
being content is the only thing in life I want.
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