trust fall

waking up early
dreaming of sleep
talking to someone who doesn't make a peep
he's always there
he's always watching
but he never should be
never should be responding
he isn't responding for a reason
when you talk to him
he doesn't answer
is he not allowed to?
is he even listening?
is he even there?
there is a higher power
there must be
but it's hard to believe when you can't see
no one knows
no one but us
listen to us
pray with us
drink his blood
drink the wine
drink
drown
pray until I say you can stop
you have to be good to go to heaven
don't do what you want
do what a made up higher power says
I think he was originally made up for hope
now it's out of control
rules, lies, pope
no one can stop religious
it's a blood bath
it's supposed to be inner peace
when all they want is to infect us with the worshipping disease
be straight
be plain
ask for his forgiveness
and ignore the pain
trust fall and he'll catch you
no he won't
he didn't
I'm on the ground after falling
falling backward
no one caught me
is it because I don't have enough faith?
is it because I'm not pure?
no one is pure
life fucks you
no ones a virgin
not even Mary
no one cares unless you're in the ground buried
when you die
do you go the sky?
or is it darkness?
you feel nothing
you are nothing
the thoughts stop
the voices stop
there's no heaven
there's no hell
all there is here and now
stop wasting your time preparing for something that might not be there
sin, rebel
what's the worst that could happen?
hell?