I don't know the reasons
It's hard to tell why
But in the last few years,
I've learned that I can't cry
It's not that it's impossible,
I mean from time to time I do
But the heartbreaking thing,
Is that it won't be for you
I've realized that on the inside
I'm quite selfish, you see
Because the only times that I cry
Seem to be for me.
Outwardly, I'm not selfish
I care about others so much
It's a fact
But I can't help wondering,
Am I subconsciously putting on an act?
Your feedback helps natalee understand what's working
I don't have much to tell you. I'm Nat, I'm 15, and I'm ridiculously boring
What if things were different. And I hadn't had made that choice. How long would we last, how long would this whole thing last. Would we do anything.
It's very thick rope Because it absorbs everything I ever see But I can't really ever cut anything out Yell it out. Write it out. Burn it out. Burn it all out.
I haven't written in a while and It's not that I've had nothing to say It's because I have grown to neglect and reject the way I feel, Instead of injecting and reflecting the mix of confusion...
Turn around ... Is it me you see Am I the person you thought I'd turn out to be. Turn around ... Does it make you wanna run to me To make my heart skip a beat. Turn around ...
I feel a little lost As if I'm out of touch Slightly overwhelmed Everything's too much I feel a little awed Surrounded by the greats A tiny little figure Upon whom I wait I feel a little tired My...
So much to do and so much to say... Will tomorow be to late. I never wanted things to end in this way. One mistake after another leads to hate. Feeling moments slipping right past.
Far too long pretending it wasn't wrong. Far too much being used as a crutch. Far from good,far from what it should. Far away is where my mind tended to sway. Far we have come but the end had begun.
Opuss is my place to express my feelings. Not my place to exchange gossip or dirty dealings. Not taking sides or commenting on rumour. Keep doing what I'm doing. With sensitivity and humour.
@natalee Mhm. I get it from time to time/ year to year. It's sucky! But some what inspirational. It's like you're there, but emotionally not... I just alway thought of it as being a hollow shell I guess. π
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