Hesitation

I don't want to feel
This inkling I am now
This niggling in my brain

I won't let you get inside
The inner depths of my mind
I won't be hurt again

I can hear a little voice
At the back of everything
Telling me to let go

My body and my heart
Both want to let me
But my mind will just say no

Im sick of being scared
To even talk, touch
or look at you

For fear that I'm falling
In love
And I want to be true

Ive got to be strong
I wont let you see
I wont let you prove me wrong
But I've got to be me

I don't want to feel
The way I do now
Im trying to stop
But I don't know how

Listen to the voice
That tells me to fall
Do I jump off the cliff
Do I risk it all.

Heart or my head
What will it be

I wont decide
Life will let me

By Olivia Lynn