Love And War Chpt.76

As soon as I opened the door to the house, I dropped my bags and raced upstairs. I ignored Lucy's calls and collapsed down onto my bed, I buried my head into Adams pillow. Breathing in his familiar scent. Lucy walked quietly in, 'what happened on the plane Abby?' she asked firmly. 'I think I had a panic attack.' I said, my head still masked by Adams pillow. She pulled me away from the pillow and enveloped me in a hug. I sat quietly, letting her fuss over me, as if I were young again, and having friend trouble. I couldn't cry any more, even though I was breaking inside. I felt so emotionally drained, the strain of the events of the past few months caught up on me. I felt weak and my eye lids were drooping with exhaustion. Lucy lay me down and pulled the covers over me, she sat with me until I fell asleep.

I woke up to the harsh trill of the phone ringing. I sighed in relief when it stopped, I had just snuggled back into the duvet, when Lucy walked in, phone extended in her hand. She mouthed, 'it's for you.' I felt a surge of excitement and nerves as I fantasized that it was Adam on the end on the phone telling me he was coming home. 'hello.' I said. 'oh hi Abby it's Alex.' he said cheerfully, my heart sank. 'oh hi.' I said weakly. 'umm is there any chance you could send your wedding video over, it's just that I'm trying to help Adam remember and I think that it might help for him to see it.' he babbled. 'of course, I'll send it today.' I replied, he thanked me and put the phone down.

I went out with Amelie to post the DVD. It started off sunny, but then the sun was smothered by dark, angry clouds that unleashed a torrent of rainfall causing us to quickly run home.

It was another week before Lucy had to move back to base, to complete a training exercise.
'are you sure you're going to be ok?' she asked as she pulled her bags downstairs. 'of course I will, I've got this cheeky monkey keeping an eye on me.' I said cheerfully, I jiggled Amelie in my arms making her squeal excitedly. I stayed strong while lucy left, so that she wouldn't see me cry. In the week that she had left I felt lonely, with only Amelie to keep me company. I felt as though slowly I was losing everyone I loved.