Why does no one understand? I don't always get what I want. Do I want to never be able to see my best friend? No. Do I want to hear my sister and my parents having screaming matches at night? No. Do I want to have to lie about how I feel about people? No. Do I want to hate how I look? No. Do I want to have to fake some friendships just so I dot loose others? No. Didn't thinks so. But I can't change any of this. So I guess I'll just put up with all of this shit. I usually focus on other people's problems. Maybe that's because mine are all so personal. I'm removed from their problems though. I don't have to go through it. All I can do is put up with my shit and put a fake smile on myself. Until someone, anyone, comes along that can make me smile for real. And forget all of this stuff.... Anyone... As long as I'm happy one day, I'll put up with it
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I've felt like this before..like I was wrapped up in other people's issues & ignoring my own, just waiting for something to change. But no one can do that for you, & eventually you'll find your way & you'll be happy with yourself. Thats always the biggest challenge😌
@Fly10 It's not that I feel like in wrapped up I know I am and I do it consciously I just don't know why
@parky72 By wrapped up, I meant the part you referred to about dealing with other people's problems so you can forget about your own. All I can say is that eventually with me, something kinda snapped & I readjusted my focus...dealt with stuff head on if you know what I mean? It helps that you're aware of the fact you're doing it, as that's half the battle😌
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