Stepping into the unknown
For what I've known was a facade
I've given up on foolish hope
I'm off to find unbroken calm
I take my weary troubled soul
In search of brand new life
I break free from my crumbling mould
And I'm finally alive
My heart begins to beat again
Like a watch that's been rewound
And the voices that were in my brain
No longer make a sound
For I at last have found my calm
Serenity complete
Some times the search is wide and far
But the reward is oh so sweet
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My life was waiting, Time escaping, Walls were closing in, My light was wasting, Mind complacent, Fools were roving in. My frights were pacing, A mind so vacant, Rules were opposed within.
I come to the corner of my mind. A place shadowed and black. A baron abyss. No way back. Every teasing turn. Wills me to sanity. A safe haven. Once free. As I tiptoe into lost awareness.
I cut my hair, Change its colour, Red, blonde perhaps blue, Maybe get a tattoo. New job, New car, New country, Just trying to find me.
Open my eyes. My ceiling i see. Get out of bed. A new day awaits me. Look in the mirror. A ghastly reflection. Hair uncontrollable. An awful complexion. Wash and scrub. With lotions and potions.
Put my headphones in Im a totally different person. Im not ugly Im beautiful Im full of life Consumed by the music,the beat,the lyrics. I sing along,even if I am off key. I dance,as horrible as I am.
I look in the mirror. And what do I see. A girl with a dream. That's me. She stands up tall. With lots of pride. She glared at it again. Wondering whats on the other side. She feels the strength.
Today, I cut about 1/3 of my hair off. Thankfully it turned out okay, but seeing as I don't really give a crap about my appearance it was hardly a life/death situation.
I had tried to convince myself that by running away and changing my name and appearance that I was a different person. The truth was that I wasn't a different person.
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