It takes a toll on ur soul
When u, bury the only brother uve known
2 save face u gotta keep pushing on
When u knw that uve nvr been this alone
Now, u poppin pills just 2 close yo eyes
4 a moment of peace that seems so hard 2 recognize
And everybody keep asking if u ok or need some help
And all u really wanna do is have some time 4 urself
Maybe pray or curse God whatever gets shit of ur chest
Cuz now these pills & this liquor just making u more depressed
Cuz if it was up 2 u, u'd trade places wit his body
Cuz life is losing meaning all the more u try 2 fight it...
It takes a toll on ur psyche,
When everything uve known is slowly sliding
Everything u put ur pride in is sinking like posiden
And u have 2 muffle screams every time they turn off the lights
And ur life becomes a movie Wes Craven cldnt depict
And the spiral keeps on cycling down n2 this abyss
But u bottle it up until u have no control of lips
Cuz every time u get 2 talking u cry & crumble 2 bits
Or at least that's how it feels cuz u gotta keep ur composure
No one wants 2 hear the truth when they picture u as a soldier...
May The Lord have...mercy on my soul
Cuz I don't really knw wat my heart beats 4
Trapped inside this body where this blood runs cold
Look me in my eyes wat a side 2 behold
4give my slumber or the hatred that has guided me
Wit no remorse, par 4 the course, stay moving blindly
Misguided rage, I turn the page in hopes 2 find me
The casualties r only there 2 remind me
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