Escape

Your day became my night,
My world is inside out,
I'd give you a call just right now,
But you'd be pissed off this nighttime.
And so you're mad at me, we're not in contact,
But I still think of you, I just don't know how to act.
I left you all behind, my dear friends,
I miss you so much, it's so intense.
I'm so sorry I've done this to you,
I won't be there when you got the flu.
I came here for the one and only,
That's one person, I'm still lonely.
I'm so ashamed for not being happy,
I'd need some advice to get healthily
Mentally and physically, please tell me,
Have I chosen the wrong path, was it a flee?
Why do I try to run away from life and decisions,
All I hoped and imagined to be better, stayed illusions.
I'm exactly the same here, just as I was back there,
Escaping from myself, I guess I screwed this up again.