Find yourself

I am feeling down today. I have no idea why. I miss you so much. I feel lost in my mind. my head is spinning in circles. I just can't keep you out of my head. I feel trapped in your existance. This is making me go crazy. You're making me lose my consciousness. I need to get out of this. I tried running away. From you and all this pain. My mental and my physical. I may never be the same. From all these memories that i miss. It's making me turn in circles. I am twisting all around. Sometimes instead of hitting you and pushing you away. I regret everything that i have said. If i could go back in time to turn this all around. I would have saved you before i hurt myself. Instead of you just wanting to be alone and made me go away. i would have just helped you to take all the pain away. I am sorry for who i am. For who i use to be. For who i always been. I cant remember. i can't find myself again. I am running through a dark forest of confusion and blame. Before i die. I just want you to know. That i have found some sympathy for everything i have never known.