Want

Try to stay above it all
Feelings are messy
Complicated

I don't need those
Foreign and strange

But maybe it wouldn't be so bad
I want it now
Not strange and foreign
I want it close to me
I want to feel wanted and cherished and loved

Two sides to the same person
And the choice between which shows
Contempt and want
Opposite ends

Maybe different ways of coping
Maybe human nature
Maybe nothing at all

I want and don't want it at the same time
Maybe I think contempt will make me desirable
Different way of thinking
A different way to achieve what I want
Maybe not

Maybe I will know it soon
Maybe I will get what I want

Or maybe not

I never want it
Yet I want it now

An indecipherable enigma, this want is

© Dana L. 2013