Hazy

Don't know what to do.
I'm stuck in flux.
I've had a bit to drink.
Maybe I've had too much.

My head is feeling dizzy.
There's a sickness in my gut.
I'm not sure where I am.
I'm stuck in a rut.

I'm stuck between goodness,
And doing what I should.
All my life I'm trying,
To be all that I could.

But the difficulty is finding
The middle ground.
But being generous,
Is the only thing I've found.

But generosity offers nothing,
The goodness is not seen.
The changes that I could make,
Could be considered obscene.

So do I weigh my conscience?
Try and be the best?
Look away from others,
Ignore all the rest?

Is selfishness the answer?
Do I have a soul?
Is the answer to my wishes,
Achieving my goal?

I ask you just for answers
Cause I will never know
Tell me how to feel good,
Pacify my soul.