Newfound Appreciation

I’ve done what every girl does after she gets rejected for the third and last time from a person that she really likes: I listened to tons of breakup songs.

Yeah, Marek and I never were together, so we didn’t break up. But the way things were going...and we had talked about being together...it felt like we broke up. I don’t think it was heartbreak though, just sadness. And although a lot of breakup songs talk about heartbreak, I was able to really sympathize with the artists. The sadness I felt ran deep and the emotions portrayed in the breakup songs struck all the right chords in my sad, wallowing heart’s harp.

Well, these breakup songs that I used to listen to before Marek were simply nice songs to listen to. They were heartfelt and vulnerable, the lyrics were nice. I never actually related to the songs before. But after Marek, these songs became horrifically relatable, almost as if the artist wrote the song specifically for me.

It was a weird.

The experience of falling in love but not quite being in love yet, and then suddenly denied the opportunity to continue falling in love has been an eye­-opening experience for me.

I have realized that Taylor Swift is my hero.

All this time I hated her. She jumps around from one guy to the next, claiming that the relationship that she currently has is “something real” and then the next day in the tabloids you see that it’s all over and that she has a new fella.

But I want to be her guys. Unattached. Someone that makes tons of guys swoon and dates them and then breaks up with them and then makes millions, if not billions, on the song she writes about them. She may be a deeply sad person because she’s never been with someone that long, maybe she feels unable to maintain a serious relationship? But on the other hand, the fact that she’s able to move on so easily once she degrades the ex in a hit song she writes is admirable. I can't ever be that heartless. I'm too emotional and I get too attached.

My point for blogging is that I have a newfound appreciation for Taylor Swift and breakup songs that are horribly sappy. For a long time I thought neither of them should exist. I kind of get it now. Taylor Swift is just whoring around because she's thirsty for love. And singing sappy breakup songs don't make anyone nauseous. If people went around simply talking sappily about their ex however, they would probably get punched in the face and then puked on.

I feel enlightened now.