3. The Lists

To be honest, I've never found true love before, though I had a boyfriend before. His name was Adam we were together for about a month. When we were together I wish we won't be together forever, simple because I want my power to reverse it. That's when I realised that it's not always reliable, especially with love. After Adam I've been denying love because it just hurt too much I don't want to felt like that again. I also lose faith in love for a while, until I realised that maybe this is exactly what I've been destined to be, it is what I need to go through in order to achieve the real magical moments. I regain my faith and moving on, my heart still falling apart, but it will recover. Time is the only thing I can count on to help me heal these wound. So, I created the list, 5 things I use to define love keeps me away from heart breaking again. First, "strong feeling", as I'm easily fell in love, so I need to feel the moment of those butterfly in my stomach, or I was lift off the ground like gravity doesn't exist. Second, "eyes", I personally love blue eyes, but I would love anyone who can makes me lost in his eyes and can stare at them all day. Third, "understanding", he has to understand me, I is important to every couples, only single misunderstand can tear them apart forever. Forth, "shelter", I need someone who I feel safe when he's around, those who I can sleep peacefully on his watch, put my head on his shoulders and kiss with my eyes fully closed, who I can give my heart without being fear that he'll destroy it. And the last, "trust", I need someone who I can trust and he has to trust me as well, someone who I believe he'll jump in front of the train just to save me. I know it's absurd, anyone who actually fall into all these categories would only be in your dream, he can't be exist. But I just need someone who fell into some of these to know that he will not hurt me. In case you ask me if I've ever met one? Well... (to be continue)