i thought you cared about me, but i think i was wrong. really im nothing to you. maybe i used to be something to you but not any more, i dont think :( cuz you used to smile when you saw me and sometimes you would even tell me you loved me- if you were feeling generous-...but it was all a game for you, all a big pretend.. whereas for me it was as real as the clouds that i would float into every time your round grey-blue eyes fixed on mine...someone once said that it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all..but i dont think thats true...in some ways i almost wish id never met you...almost. but still, even though i dont really mean anything to you at all, id still run miles for you, still give my lungs to you, still jump off a bridge for you. and it sickens me. i sicken myself sometimes.
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