Where did I go wrong?
Should I have fought harder for you?
Tightened my grip?
Or would that have pushed you away
Truly out of my grasp?
Should I have ignored you?
Loosened my grip?
Made you feel how I felt?
Rattled you a bit, danced cruelly on your heart?
Or should I have done what I did?
Bowed my head
And let you go,
Giving you freedom so desperately craved.
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@jaykhalil most definitely and it's not only that then there's the afterwards and all the overanalysing and the personal crucifixion for what you could have done or shouldn't have done π
@Delilah I think I am at the personal crucifixion stage at the moment, some times I drift into denial that she will come back and it will all be ok, but there are times when self pity takes over, and all you feel is the guilt for all the bad times you have ever had together. People do say that you should remember the good times but I guess its not possible if it's not a mutual breakup
@Delilah I think I am at the personal crucifixion stage at the moment, some times I drift into denial that she will come back and it will all be ok, but there are times when self pity takes over, and all you feel is the guilt for all the bad times you have ever had together. People do say that you should remember the good times but I guess its not possible if it's not a mutual breakup
@jaykhalil I know I'm there too he just sort of ignored me for two weeks straight then told me it wasn't working. Sometimes I slip into denial too and look at my two friends who broke up and were back together in a year and think 'Oh that could be us.' but then the rationalist comes in and I get all in a state again after thinking I was sweet. And then I still feel guilty about talking to guy friends he didn't like too. I do try and remember the good times but then I always end up picking something out of the memory that I did wrong. Fun times huh?
@Delilah you need to understand that talking to guys is not wrong, but cheating is! If I told what happened to me you would be shocked.
@jaykhalil no I never cheated he was just wary of this other guy on our bus was all and trust me nothing at this stage could shock me my other ex was a right pig
@Delilah I was with my live for six years, lived together, an for the last two years worked together as well, and then she found a job in the middle east and I supported her decision I move out there! Cutting the story short, we lived away from each other for five months and they were the hardest five months of my life, me in London and her being miles away wasn't easy. So she asks me to move to the middleast too, I so madly in love with her move out here, leaving a career and selling my house in london. So I move to the middleast without any work lined up or a flat or anything, obviously I had my love there. After a month she tells me that she doesn't love me anymore, she had been seeing a guy that I hadn't known about cuz I trusted her too much, chucked me out of her flat and now here I am thinking exactly what you are! Where did I go wrong??
@Delilah well he is being a right t**t to think like that, I mean you can't be In a relationship and not be able to trust your other half with friends. Unfortunately most men are like that, over possessive, jealous and dominant. It's a shame
@jaykhalil flip that's harsh to say the very least I hope things are looking up for you? Besides the broken heart that is
@jaykhalil well in my short years of experience I've come across one of them I still like to believe that he was just insecure
@Delilah things aren't looking up that well at the moment but people keep telling me times a great healer! I am not too sure about that! It feels like she has cut the cord on me and now she is watching me bleed, cry in pain, and either she is so repulsed by me being hurt that she can't be there for me or she is so madly in live with the other guy that she is oblivious to my heart ache..
@jaykhalil she's probably just being too selfish to look past the end of her nose I know it's the most difficult thing to do but you have to pretend your ok and forget about her. If you pretend for long enough I've heard it eventually comes true
@Delilah in both the cases the pain is mine, yes time may heal the wounds but it will never take away the scars, and the scars will either become my strength or they will become a weakness, a bulls eye for others to aim at! Who knows :/
@jaykhalil well perhaps the scars are a good thing in the end? We can look at them and know we've been somewhere and we deserve to be in the good place we reach in the end
@jaykhalil oh and if it makes you feel any better you can have adulteresses stones in the Middle East :)
@Delilah hahahahha yeah that's an option too but then again I wouldn't be able to live with myself :) I think you are right about pretending, I am going to have to start practicing straight away, thank you so much for listening to my babble .. Mwah
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