I hate how you imply that I should be more like you
I hate how I'll never be that
I hate how you don't talk to me, but say I'm the one that doesn't talk
I hate how I know I won't ever start the conversation first
I hate that you're better than me in almost every way imaginable
I hate that I won't ever be equivalent to you
I hate how you make me say hate, how you make me feel mean, insecure, shy, and in need of work in my social skills. How do you even do that to me?
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Hi :) I'm 12 and I love writing, dancing, photography, volunteering, and my family and friends.
Heart and mind are never in sync. Try as I might but there seems to be no link. Mind says go and heart says stop. And I am just stuck and can't reach the top. Heart and mind both cause me pain.
No tears, just thoughts Of what if. And if not. Who I am hates who I've been But I'm still wrapped up in sin I'm jealous. I'm okay. I'm angry. Can this all go away.
No one ever listens,. Yet I always try,. Sometimes I just want to run away,. Curl up and begun to cry,. No one ever cared,. Yet I do my best,. I'm sorry I'm only one person,.
What do you do when your best isn't enough. When you try so hard and it's just too tough. Do you just stop living. Do you lay down and die. Do you make an extra effort, Or do you just start to cry.
I want to talk, but who to talk to. In here there is no one what should I do. The mistake it is in my mind. I want to forget it I want it to hide.
I'm falling short of. Your hopeless expectation,. You wanted plastic-perfection. But I'm just a reckless misdirection,. So let the alarm bells ring,. I'm the odds and ends of something,.
The things in my life. Are here and there real. But what I am feeling. I don't want to feel. I'm so full of anger. Feelings of hate. I want them to leave. Before its too late. Inside my heart.
Inspired by @smellyfingers and his recent unveil. I thought I'd share why I hide myself here and to friends... What do you do if your ashamed about you.
@lucandsurprise Thank you. I was just writing after a crappy day and I realized the truth about someone. I never thought I would get more than three likes.
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