Unbalanced

A rustic world of anger.
A trauma, far from slain.

I glance away from reality.
And find myself in pain.

I write about being happy.
I write about being sad.

Experiences from within.
Both good as well as bad.

I find myself unbalanced, no routine towards my day.

I find my thoughts destructive, no clear path lights my way.

One day elation whispers.
The next depressions call.

An upside down existance.
Yet every night i fall.

A smile lined with sadness.
A smile bright with joy.

I need to find a purpose, i need to find myself.
I need to find the positives.
To save my mental health.

In a world so cursed with darkness, a single light a stray.

A smile, a laugh, a memory.
To get me through the day.

While my mind is filled with negatives, a burning ray shines through.

The hope for a better future, the hope for something new.

A purpose good and true.

~Larko