Trust and Mistrust

“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”
Friedrich Nietzsche

I trusted you once and you broke it.
I trusted you twice and you broke me.
Broken trust is such a hard thing to repair. Everyone becomes untrustworthy.
Doubt and questions purvey every statement, every action.
Mistrust and uncertainty become everyday, the norm.
I feel angry, as though something wondrous and special has been stolen from me.
I want to find it again, but I can’t. I just don’t know where it has gone.
I so desperately want to trust again.
To trust someone implicitly, without reservation, without thought, without doubt.
Maybe I can, maybe I can’t, but if I can’t..... I believe I will be alone forever.

And I don’t want to be.