Babycakes

I’m haunted by your laugh,
Your almond shaped eyes...
I still feel the smoothness of your hair,
I feel the heat from your dreamy stare.

I miss your smell,
Your soft skin
The way you used to hug me...
My shoulder is where you would rest your chin.

I remember how we used cuddle
You always loved to snuggle with me
And we would watch scary movies
Behind our fingers, sometimes giggling.

And when our fingers interlaced
When I grabbed your hand to dance...

I remember the times when we would lie in the grass,
Staring at the sky in a trance.
We would say nothing
But sometimes we gave each other an acknowledging glance.

The times we played footsie underneath the table
You never wore clothes that had a label
But you always looked cute,
Cuter than you knew.

Then there was that time that you picked me up
After I had smoked weed
It had been my first time
You didn't judge me.

And all the times after that...
When I was drunk or high or depressed
You answered the phone
That alone helped me feel less distressed.

You never prodded,
You just understood.

And then you began to drag your feet
Your head was always lowered in defeat...

You began to stand me up,
You let me down
The way that you weren’t there,
I was unsure if you still cared.

You became hopeless.
I pretended not to notice.

You didn't believe me when I apologized
You never even said goodbye
To me.
She told me where you’ve gone
That you were sick
That you needed to take time off.

You must think I forgot about you
Since I have stopped bothering to get in touch with you
I never called you again
I never sent you a reply to your text

I'm a bitch,
A horrible friend
I've lost you as my friend
Maybe I'm selfish,
But I really hope this isn't the end
For us.