"Nikki raised you
For a couple of years"
"Did a damn good job too!"
My grand mother and her sister

My sister was 12
Took care of me for
5 years
By then I was just starting school

When she turned 17
Helped me with clothes
And hair
And chores

Apparently my mom
Was in a deep depression
And worked graveyard shift
At the post office

Slept all day
Worked all night
Just long enough to get us
To school

Rides back from school
Were different everyday
Had to memorize at least
5 different cars and people

Kind of hard
For a 6 year old
So Nikki helped me
Yet she was the one with dyslexia

She took care of me
Until we moved
Then her and my other sister, Joee
Stuck to their personal lives without me

That was when my moms wife
Moved in with us
As well as 3 little boys
Wasn't that hell

Now as I start high school
Nikki has a house
Joee an apartment
And I am supported when I need it now

It's just after feeling ignored
After all these years
Nikki is the one
Who took care of me

Treated me like her daughter
When it wasn't her job
In the beginning
But mom was just in and out with the world

Sitting here now
It seems I'm more
Nikki's daughter
Than my own mother's

I'm happy
I'm more Nikki's
Because if I was like my mom
I probably would be here right now

Mentally insane,
So proven
But if she takes her meds
She's fine

Same goes for
Her depression
Her bipolar disorder
Her sleep apnea

Miss a pill though
All sorts of loopy
Nikki did do a damn good job
Since mom could barely have one at all

So that's a backround
I recently learned
About my sister and I
Truly something, I'd never expect it.