I've never known something like this, it's a cross between fear and happiness.
It's a fine line between delusion and reality.
My mind keeps switching, between past and present.
Did it all really happen?
Was it ever worthwhile.
All the pain and the worry.
All the questions left unanswered.
All the silent, deadly endings.
All the heart to hearts left unheard, only to pull ourselves back and forth.
For you to pull the wool over my eyes.
Make me see this as fact,
Put this all on my back.
It's you not me.
You did this to us, you did this to me.
I struggle to cope, with the everyday things.
Push it to the back of my mind.
Thinking this is life, this is normal.
See you'll never know, what you have done.
Knocked my walls down, now only to rebuild.
But I will do this alone, without you and your 'help'
This time I need for me,
To face what you've become,
Or maybe who you always was.
I will forgive, to some extent.
But these things I will not regret.
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