Did You Ever Think It Would Be Me?

Did you ever think it would be
That little girl with the tiny curls framing her face and the dimples
The one who's eyes glowed
Who would throw the ball at a stranger
Ask their name
And smile?
That one day she would cry in her room for hours
Unnoticed
Feel so alone she wouldn't leave the house
End friendships she'd had all of her life
Have a journal because she didn't think people would care?
Did you ever think it would be
That little girl in a ruffled dress and striped tights
Who would make sure the little boy sitting alone was okay
Didn't know how to say no
Thinking she'd hurt someone's feelings
Never lost a friend?
That one day she would hide behind a smile
Crumbling on the inside
Keeping back her feelings
Saying she's fine while she's screaming
Quitting because she couldn't take it anymore
Not crying in public because she's embarrassed?
Did you ever think it would be
The little girl who wore what she wanted
Played outside with the boys
Got dirty
Laughed at her own jokes
Didn't care how she looked
Cut her own hair
Thought she was beautiful
Was excited to grow up?
That one day she would give up
Consider cutting
Not eating
Running away
Hiding
Distancing herself
From everyone
Suicide?

Did you ever think that girl would be me?
Me either