Not Sure What To Call This.

Sometimes I'd wonder what it be like if they knew what I do when I'm "down in the dumps." I know that I'd be judged by some and hated by a few, even if I am working on pulling myself through. At least I'm putting forth the effort to stop, right? Regardless, I shouldn't have done it in the first place but me choosing to stop on my own free will counts for something doesn't it? There's no need to "check my arms" on a daily basis. Once again, you're not my mother nor will you ever be and to be quite honest, I'm starting to doubt if you're even my friend. I'm starting to doubt everyone. Maybe I have trust issues and I'm just now realizing it for the first time. Then again being stabbed in the back repeatedly with the same knife will do that to a person I guess. I know I shouldn't post stuff like this and I usually don't and I'm sorry for doing it now. I'm not begging for attention I just need to get this off of my chest. Maybe I should be talking to someone instead, like a psychiatrist or something. I'm sorry if I'm bringing anyone down for that was not my intention I just wanted to get this out. I've let it just sit around inside for what seems like ages and I needed a place to rant about it. I'm sorry that this had to be the place hahaha! As for my series Apocalypse, I'm not really sure if I should continue. I want to finish it but I haven't had the time and I've been having writers block lately. I'm not sure. The only thing I've been good for here lately are blogs an I know that they are boring. The have to be because they are about me. Anyway, for now it's kind of on hold until I can get through this writers block. I will come back to it I swear! I love you all so much and thank you for putting up with me and my silly blogs and my ranting and my breakup issues and just my issues in general! It really means a lot to me, I can't even begin to describe how thankful I am to have all of my followers!!!!! I'm surprised I still even have followers hahaha! Enough with my boring chitchat though. I'll try brainstorming with a friend tomorrow about my Apocalypse series and see if she has any suggestions. Til then farewell lovelies!