I Miss You

It's been four years now
I never say your name
But I hear it in my thoughts
I hope you know I love you

I remember sitting in your chair
Which isn't there anymore
But we would watch television
And eat popcorn and snacks

I remember my first day of school
You watched me walk on the bus
And you waited for it to pull away
I told you about school when I came home

We would play library downstairs
And I would check you out books
And stamp them with my puppy stamp
We'd spend ours playing

We would go to church
And you would sing louder than the choir
I miss your voice
And I can still hear it, but I can't go back there.

Your office is still downstairs
And all your things from your radio days
I have your picture on the wall
I remember you in the days before

I remember the last days
And you still smiled
And you held my hand even when you were dead to the world
Even though I knew you weren't

And you told grandma
That it was time for you to go home
And she said okay
And you left

I still hurt today
Oh goodness I miss you
I wish you could see the lovely mess I am
I'm getting somewhere Grandpa

Even though I think there's no heaven
I hope you can see me
I'm going to make my dreams true
I love you, Grandpa.